[popularity short story] pour your heart out for the rest of your life

Write from my bottom of my heart for the rest of my life | Shi Ming Sina Weibo | Shi Ming learned that Yi is always easy to have beautiful fantasies when one meets or hears good things. After attending my sister's wedding, I was born with the courage to get close to Dou Youqing. It was just the gentle cajoling of the wedding, which was the beginning that I begged but could not get. Today is October 19th. It has been 93 days since I first saw him in the cafe opposite the school on July 17. I agree with him. I drank coffee in the cafe for three months, followed him silently for three months, and drew no less than a hundred portraits of him. But I didn't know his name until today. The roommate strategically said that I have the depth and kindness of a 60-year-old grandmother in the matter of having a secret crush on the male god. I patronized the cafe for three months and got along best with Su Qing, the shop assistant. Today, when I was bringing me coffee, she asked me if I wanted to take a part-time job here. I vacillated between drinking coffee and serving coffee. After looking at him, he was still sitting in his usual seat. Today he has a goblet and a bottle of red wine on his table. The dim light there made his features deep and melancholy. Oh, melancholy is real, not the illusion caused by light. I have never seen him in such a state. He may be emotionally frustrated. I can't help but guess that I have made up a lot of pictures in my mind. Suddenly, the little couple at the next table made a big noise, and the girl's voice suddenly rose: "if you want to go, give me that 400000 back before you go." As many as 400000 handsome men are getting up, probably trying to run. The girl reached out and tried to grab him, but the man easily broke away and strode out the door. When the lights were on the outside, the man raised his hand got a taxi, and left without looking back. 

He just got up and tried to run. I was not wrong. The girl fell softly, clutching her heart after the man left, and Su Qing and I hurriedly went to help. Only then did I know that he was the store manager. The gloom was hidden, and he arranged everything neatly. I stood next to him while he was on the phone, feverish by the faint smell of wine on him. His voice is low and beautiful, and my heart beats like a drum. Gu Yu has congenital heart disease and is not out of danger. Her parents didn't know about the man and 400000, so they called the police directly. The police asked us in detail about the situation in the store at that time, and the monitoring in the store happened to be broken, and neither he nor Su Qing remembered much. Only I remember best that I asked the police for a pen and paper and drew a portrait of the man. Su Qing was very excited: "it's him! it's him!" I was afraid she would sing "Young Hero Little Nezha", and then she shook my arm wildly, "how can you remember so clearly?" You have a good memory! " Can't this man praise my painting skills? I even memorized the license plate number of the taxi I glanced at casually, and Dou Youqing's eyes were even more surprised. This is a piece of cake for me. His name is Dou Youqing, and his name matches his temperament. It was late coming out of the police station, and Su Qing was picked up by her boyfriend. I left something in the cafe, so I went back with Dou Youqing to get it. "Xiao Wan?" 

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He called me, raising the right arc at the corners of his mouth. He is 29 years old, which is about what I expected. The man who walked away from the cafe is a marriage scam with a criminal record, which is different from the sophisticated and slick way in which he is handsome. Dou has a mature charm and gives people a clean and warm feeling. "Thank you for today." He said. I shook my head and said, "nothing." In the taxi, he sat in the passenger seat with one arm against the window. Long fingers pressed against the center of the eyebrow, as if very tired. The light of the streetlamp was reflected on the side of his face, with broken hair on his forehead, and a hazy silhouette on the glass of the car. I looked at him secretly, and the joy spread uncontrollably, but the deer in my heart seemed to be smoking a cigarette and asked me, "is that it?" I don't hit, I don't hit. " But before long, the sound of "knock, knock, knock" sounded flustered and clearly. I don't want to like him in silence anymore. When I went to the cafe to paint again, Su Qing brought me a cup of spiced milk green. Dou Youqing ordered it for me. As soon as I looked up, Dou Youqing was looking at me. Later he told me that I looked down and painted like an old friend of his. I smiled shyly. Gu Jing's mother called from the hospital and wanted us to come and say that Gu Yuxing had come, but she did not believe that her beloved boyfriend was a liar and had not been in the water for two days. When she arrived at the hospital, her mother's eyes were red and swollen and she begged us to persuade her in a low voice. Gu Ying refused to see the police, so I repeated all the words of the police that day to her. She probably didn't have the strength to get hysterical, just looked at me in silence, and then picked up the glass at hand. When the glass came head-on, I dodged it cleverly, and the afterlight saw Dou's hand stretched out by the Qing Dynasty and put it down. Dou Youqing took me out of the ward and confirmed that the cup was not Scalded. He looked a little relaxed. I wanted to express my opinion, pointed to the ward, and said to him, "she loves that person and can't accept that he is a liar, so she won't listen to anyone." 

Dou Youqing looked back at the ward and looked very carefully as if she had been touched by some secret touch. "maybe she just couldn't accept that her lover left from now on, whether she was a liar or something, far from that important," he said. " I am dumb, so it is possible to say so. Dou Youqing turned his back to me, and I naturally couldn't see where his wistful eyes fell through the narrow glass window on the ward door. I said to him briskly, "Let's go." He looked back at me for two seconds and then said, "OK." On the way back that day, Dou Youqing promised me to take a part-time job in a cafe. I was surprised when I told the strategy the news. "Boss," she used a very inappropriate analogy, "Dapeng rises in the same wind and soars for 90,000 miles." I have never seen such a Dapeng. I took a white look at her. Fourth, after working part-time in a cafe, I had a little more contact with Dou Youqing, but only a little. For example, I used to look at him from a long distance and found a small tattoo on the right side of the middle finger of his left hand. It was not obvious after he put his fingers together. Now I can see what is tattooed there. Su Qing told me that although Dou Youqing is often in the store, he doesn't care much about things, and he doesn't like to be disturbed. He has a thin feeling in the shop assistant's heart. I don't see that he is the boss here. as excusable. But in November, Dou Youqing's whereabouts suddenly became a mystery. I was very surprised and didn't know what he was doing. One day when he was still away, a girl came to see him and looked very pale when she saw that we were the only ones in the store. Su Qing quietly gossiped to me: "I have seen her before, she likes the store manager very much, ah, the store manager must be avoiding her these days." "what about the store manager? Don't you like her? " Su Qing mysteriously shook her head: "the store manager is always clean." I can see that Dou Youqing is clean, but he is too good for himself, and I don't know which one he likes. When I think that I haven't even added him to Wechat, my shoulders collapse like an angel with broken wings. But I had no idea, and soon I got my golden thigh. I met Aunt Jiang at the corner of the street not far from the cafe. She stood there with a macaron-colored suitcase looking left and right. When we passed her, we had a brief look at each other. I paused because of the resemblance between her and Dou Youqing, and she looked at me expectantly: "Little girl, do you know where a cafe is nearby?" That's how my golden thigh appeared. 

Aunt Jiang came to see her son, but her son broke her appointment and didn't pick her up. She didn't know her son's new address. It was the limit to finding the cafe from memory. It took more than ten minutes of cold wind at the corner of the street to meet me. I couldn't get in touch with Dou Youqing, so I was going to take her back to the store first, but she sheepishly pointed to her right foot and asked me, "is it far?" I accidentally sprained it just now. " I took her to the hospital. Aunt Jiang finally got in touch with her son there and asked for a lot of compensation on the phone. It was an hour later when Dou Youqing came. When he saw me, he was stunned for a moment. Aunt Jiang glared at him angrily: "this is the little girl who sent me. Say thank you quickly." What are you doing? Didn't you agree to pick me up? I've been waiting for you for a long time. " Dou Youqing put down the things in his hand and first said thank you to me. Then some helplessly responded to the mother's question but did not elaborate, only said that something was delayed. Aunt Jiang snorted softly, "is there anything more important than me?" Later, I learned that Aunt Jiang is a very lovely little woman. In the Dou family, she is the princess of father and son. That day, probably because I was there, Aunt Jiang was too embarrassed to show in front of outsiders, so she easily forgave the unreliable and inconsiderate Dou Youqing. Five soon Dou Youqing took Aunt Jiang home to recuperate. Because I am his shop assistant, Aunt Jiang is more enthusiastic to me, and she always asks Dou Youqing to bring me a piece of dessert made at home by herself. On Friday afternoon, I suddenly received a call from Aunt Jiang, who invited me to dinner at home. Aunt Jiang was inconvenient to go out, so I went to the supermarket to pick out ingredients. 

On the phone, Aunt Jiang told me what kind of fruit and vegetable meat to choose while chatting with me. I was flattered by this kindness. The decoration of Dou Youqing's home is a very cold industrial style, but the details are not new. It's just that Aunt Jiang couldn't help complaining to me that the house was so lifeless and deserted that she didn't even want to open her eyes when she lay in bed. Aunt Jiang is an excellent cook, and when she talks about her family, her face is gentle, as if she had never been treated badly by the years: "Youqing and his father's stomach was so good that I couldn't get used to eating school food when I was in college, but he learned to do it himself. I can't believe he did it like a model." I can't imagine Dou Youqing cooking in an apron. In a trance, Dou Youqing came back. That day was the first time I saw Dou Youqing at home. He leaned lazily on the sofa and read magazines, wearing the new pink slippers Aunt Jiang gave him. I thought for no reason what his descendants would look like after many years, and my heart tickled. After that day, I went to Dou Youqing's house more and more times. Aunt Jiang likes me so much that even my roommate and I need to change places to rent a house. She contacted me for me. And Dou Youqing family on the same floor, separated by several households. For this unexpected joy, I paid 10% more rent in this upscale residential area. I didn't tell Dou Youqing when I moved. I didn't know until he came back. "you live alone?" He asked me. "the roommate will move in later." I said. I was tidying up the living room. Dou Youqing's suit was straight, loosened his tie, and stepped across a cluttered room, right in front of a pile of drawings. Before I could stop it, he turned it up and found that it was him. I painted a lifelike picture of him with different looks, nearly a hundred before and after. Dou Youqing twisted his eyebrows, but his expression was not quite right. He must think I'm a pervert. I pretended to explain casually: "just a practitioner, you are a good model." But Dou Youqing did not follow my words to tease me and give me a step-down. After he left, I sat down on the ground in frustration. I upset him, I thought to myself. I feel uneasy when I think of his attitude towards the opposite sex. There were too many surprises in the process of getting close to him to support the bottom line for me to touch him. According to my observation and some inside information from Su Qing, his bottom line is that the opposite sex around him can't have other thoughts about him. I don't know how many girls are used to it. Sure enough, Dou treated me in the next few days and suddenly alienated me a lot. 

Of course, I was not reconciled and carefully pretended not to find it, but I underestimated Dou Youqing's indifference. Finally, when I showed up at his house again, his dissatisfaction reached its climax. As soon as he came back that day, he saw me sitting on his sofa at a loss. When Aunt Jiang saw him coming back, she told him about my experience while making dumplings. "look how unlucky Wan Wan is. She has lost her keys to her mobile phone wallet. It's a good thing I moved here, and I can take care of it with us. Where else would a girl go? Come on, go and wash your hands and help me cook the dumplings. " I prayed in my heart that Aunt Jiang would stop talking. Dou Youqing's face was already very bad. He frowned and asked me, "where's your roommate?" Aunt Jiang replied for me, "her roommate has something to do at home out of town today." All I can do is the whisper, uh-huh. Under the scrutiny of Dou Youqing, I feel like an emotional liar on my elders. Aunt Jiang couldn't wait for Dou Youqing to help her, so she brought dumplings to the kitchen. It's just me and Dou Youqing. He took off his coat and sat down opposite me, looking cold and straightforward: "A friend of mine did it before."A very excessive thing haunted me, so I couldn't go to the airport that day. I don't like unscrupulous girls like her, and I don't like people taking advantage of my family. " For a moment, my heart seemed to be wrapped in a piece of mischievous ice, which was so cold that it was smoking. I couldn't explain to him that I was ready to go to the cafe to fool through the day. I met my aunt in the elevator and she wanted to bring me back. Knowing that my aunt had an injury on her foot, I dared not let her pull with me for too long. He won't believe it. I didn't know the taste of the meal. Aunt Jiang did not know our conversation, and every word she said to me brimming with enthusiasm and love made me feel on pins and needles. After a quick meal, I ran away. I don't have any other friends, so I have nowhere to go. I went back to the cafe, where at least there was Scald. Dou Youqing did not come to the store recently. I have been nesting here in the afternoon until I am the only one left. I was hungry a long time ago, and I didn't want to be busy, so I put the closing time forward by half an hour. Wrapped in a thick sweater of Su Qing I found in the store and wearing an exaggerated Christmas hat, it looks very funny. 

With only a few yuan left in my pocket, I could only buy dry bread. I sat outside on the bench to eat, accompanied by the cold wind. This is not enough to eat. I looked at the whole busy street and searched it with my eyes. There was nothing to get for free except a bag of biscuits at my feet. The independently packaged cookie seems to have been crushed. The bag was covered with mud and I noticed it as soon as I came out. I relieved my hunger by holding my breath, but to no avail. I bent down and picked up the bag of cookies with two fingers. I just wanted to see what kind of cookie it was, but the next second it was snatched by a hand, and I watched helplessly as the owner of my hand threw it into the dustbin. No, I actually kind of want to eat. I shouted in my heart. As soon as I looked up, I met Dou Youqing's bright eyes. He frowned and asked, "Is that what you're going to eat?" As soon as he appeared, he looked like a scolding face, but when his eyes stayed on the top of my head, his expression became indescribable. This time I was brought home by Dou Youqing, and I no longer had to be guessed by him to use his family with ulterior motives. He apologized to me and turned the heat in the car to the maximum. I finally took off my Christmas hat and nodded to accept his apology. When Aunt Jiang saw me coming back, she quietly winked at me when Dou Youqing was not present, with a "you rest assured" expression. I smiled gratefully. Aunt Jiang made me delicious food. Dou Youqing watched me finish eating and gave me her room to sleep. 

It's rare to take care of me like this, even though he's just trying to make amends. I washed briefly and lay awake on Dou Youqing's big bed. I don't know when it began to fall outside the window, Lesser Snow, which is the third snow this year. I got up to look and sighed how time passed. After watching for a while, I opened the bedroom door to pour water, only to see Dou Youqing unexpectedly. He sat on the floor of the living room without turning on the light, and there were several wine bottles on the coffee table. He was drunk. Outside the huge floor-to-ceiling window, the whole city is brightly lit and magically gorgeous. By the light, I saw a slight redness in his eyes. I went over and sat down. He glanced at me and handed me a can of beer. I took a sip without rashly opening my mouth. After a while, he handed over another letter. The white letterhead was as neat as new. I opened it and found only a few lines: I said I wanted to have a girl, which should have come true by now.

 If you are not married, I hope it is not because of me, otherwise, my conscience will be uneasy, but it will not be like this all the time. There is no need to be nostalgic in the past. I'm 29 years old. I don't know what this is. Dou Youqing became talkative and seemed to hide mountains and water in his eyes. The letter comes from his ex-girlfriend Yoshiko Kino, a Japanese girl studying in China. Like all lovers who love each other deeply, their memories of them are as vivid and strong as wine. In the end, when they went to the United States for further study, Yoshiko Kino broke his promise and disappeared like a drop of water into the sea. "do you know people with hypermnesia?" He asked me. Kino told him a story. Someone asked A, a hypermnesia, what he would have done before he knew when he was going to die. A has had such an excellent memory since childhood that he won't forget any details. He was treated as a monster by his friends when he was young and was envied and isolated by his peers when he grew up. A was lonely until a girl approached him. This feeling is wonderful, they are not lovers, but A thinks this is his love. But the girl left him later, 34 days later in a year. A said that if he could know the date of his death, he would lie in bed 34 days a year earlier, and the rest of the time would be spent fully recalling his short time with her. Hyperamnesia, that sounds sad. "am I like A? I knew her when I was 21. She left after four years of love. I am 29 years old this year. " Dou Youqing asked me. He loved her for four years and spent another four years immersing himself in an old dream, living on memories like a believer. She left me this letter before she left for me to read it when I was 29. She was afraid that I could not let her go, and she especially gave me a letter after four years to cut off my thoughts. As we said, it's a terrible thing to be unmarried at the age of 29. I thought I could marry her right after graduation. How cruel she is. " He smiled. "my birthday is on October 19th." It happened to be the day I met you, but I didn't dare to open it at that time. " I remembered that he was sitting in his usual seat that day, with a goblet and a bottle of red wine on the table. I didn't know what brand it was. The light there was dim, which showed that his features were deep and melancholy. He was in a bad mood that day, and I maliciously speculated whether he was emotionally frustrated. I remembered what he said in front of Gu Ying's ward: "maybe she just can't accept that her lover is leaving from now on, whether she is a liar or something, it is far less important." 

Think of the bottom line of indifference when he is directed against the opposite sex. It turns out that the reason is like this. I looked up and drank a mouthful of wine, and I didn't know what it was like. I heard myself asking his voice, "are you getting married?" Dou Youqing was silent for a long time, and finally, as if he had made up his mind, he gently put the letter back, folded it, and said, "tie the knot." So I asked him, "what do you think of me?"What do you say? " Aunt Qijiang stayed for another time and left. Dou Youqing and I went to see her off. Since that night, my relationship with Dou Youqing has been inexplicably closer. He no longer resists my existence. I can see Aunt Jiang's joy from the bottom of her heart. Dou Youqing usually draws some design drafts, and his clients are very special. After that day, I became his temporary assistant. After the winter vacation, I followed him everywhere. He blocked the wine on the table for me, and I cooked noodles for him in the middle of the night, when I could always remember Aunt Jiang's happiness when she mentioned cooking for her beloved. I love Dou Youqing very much, and the idea of marrying him grows crazily in my heart. I think it's not impossible. On a business trip to France, we took the only group photo on the south bank of the Seine in central Paris, with a corner of the Eiffel Tower in the background. He was wearing a white scarf and an overcoat with a standing collar, and his eyes happened to fall on me. I like to draw him so much, but I have never painted this picture, nor have I painted that scene. On New Year's Eve, I called him in the attic at home day, and my parents were watching the Spring Festival Gala in the living room. Dou Youqing asked me what New year's resolutions I had, and I said I wanted to get married early. He just smiled on the other end of the phone. 

Dou Youqing waited for Yoshiko Kino for four years, but all he got was a letter like that, which was her determination to leave. Even if he can't let her go, he always wants to get married. I can be his best choice. The winter vacation is over soon, and everyone is preparing for graduation. The strategy has got the offer, of two companies. I'm also choosing where to go. The last few months passed so quickly that we walked out of the ivory tower in the twinkling of an eye. Dou Youqing came to be my partner at the prom. I thought this was the best start if Yoshiko Kino didn't come back. Yes, she's back. As said in the letter, with her lovely daughter as a princess. It was July 17, the first anniversary of my first meeting with Dou Youqing. 

I asked him to see a movie, but he stood me up. I waited until midnight and went home trembling with arms in my arms. He didn't show up until the next afternoon, with a faint smell of smoke. I've never seen him smoke. I didn't expect him to smoke. He said he was sorry that he missed his appointment yesterday because he met Yoshiko Kino yesterday. This is nothing but thunder to me. Yoshiko Nino, who already has a three-year-old daughter, just divorced two months ago and came here from Japan. Dou Youqing's time in the cafe plummeted. When I saw him sharing the address of Yoshiko Kino's photography studio on Wechat, I looked for it. I couldn't tell what the purpose was. Yoshiko Kino was not surprised to see me and smiled softly at me: "are you, Xiao Wan?" I heard Dou Youqing mention you. Nice to meet you. Hello. " She was dressed in a long white embroidered dress with long maroon hair hanging over her chest and a clear and quiet face. I was in a daze for a moment. This is the person he loves. We found a cafe next to her studio. Kino also studied art, when she and Dou Youqing were studying in the city. Dou Youqing once ordered a cup of fragrant milk green for me, saying that I looked down and painted like one of his friends, and it must be her. "I always thought Dou Youqing lived abroad, so I came back here. I didn't expect him to be here because of his work." In the end, it was a fateful encounter, she said sincerely, trying to appease me. As a mother, she was more understanding than anyone else. After that, she and I went to kindergarten to pick up her daughter Tuan Tuan, and when we came out, we met Dou Youqing. He and Kino looked at each other and did not ask anything tacitly. I kept in touch with Yoshiko Kino and probably knew her story. When she was young, her brother was criticized by the whole family for her lame legs. In college, she escaped from reality, came to China to study, and got to know Dou Youqing. 

Just as she was preparing to study abroad with Dou Youqing, her mother forced her to go back for marriage because of her family interests. "I don't regret going back. At least now I'm out of touch with the Kino family, and I've found the pleasure of photography." She was relieved to exchange a marriage for half a life of peace, but there must be a lot of bitterness in it. Yoshiko Kino is very nice and deserves all the love of Dou Youqing. I can't hate it. But I love Dou Youqing. They haven't established a formal relationship yet. I don't want to give up. I don't want to remember the despicable idea that I wanted to find Dou Youqing wrapped in a bath towel when the power went out in the apartment that day. I went out strangely, and when the door of Dou Youqing's house was opened, by the orange candlelight in the room, I saw Yoshiko Kino who opened the door for me. When we were speechless, there was a call, and the lights were brightly lit all around. I'm so glad I didn't get out of my head and got dressed before I went out. So standing in front of Yoshiko Kino, I can shamelessly pretend that nothing has happened and say that I have come to borrow a candle to save my poor self-esteem. I sat down in the living room and affectionately next to me to introduce Dou Youqing to her new doll. This room has been filled with all kinds of warm things, and it is no longer a deserted place in Aunt Jiang's mouth. Dou Youqing is cooking in the kitchen, which I couldn't imagine before. I remembered that Aunt Jiang said that he had developed good cooking skills when he was in college.

 It is not surprising that good cooking is born of lovers. I also saw the way Dou Youqing looked at Yoshiko Kino, with a burning affection I had never seen before. She must be familiar with that look, right? Only Nanshan and your eyes do not change the old days when they meet. It was cloudy and rainy at the beginning of August, just like my depressed mood. Dou Youqing may have shaken me, but now that feeling has disappeared. At 06:00 in the afternoon, the sky was like an iron curtain, with dark clouds and low pressure. Kino is very busy, her studio is difficult to start, Dou Youqing for her to pick up the group, I insisted on following, took the umbrella to climb his cross-country. The gate of the kindergarten was a little crowded. Across the road, I was waiting by the car with an umbrella. Dou Youqing entered the kindergarten. When she came out, she was held in his arms, but she struggled down for some reason. Without waiting for Dou to react, she ran to the middle of the road. A car happened to become very fast. The torrential rain raged, leaving only a false shadow in front of my eyes, roaring in my head. When Yoshiko Kino came to the hospital, he was as embarrassed as I was a mixture of blood and water. Pounce on it, hugShe cried: "is Dou Dou going to die?" It's all bad. You shouldn't pick up dolls. " Yoshiko Kino, whose delicate face was colorless, sat beside me with a mass of numbness in his arms. I reluctantly went to buy some water and bread, but no one touched it. At this time, I have been thinking in my mind that when I went home yesterday, I ran into the scene of Dou Youqing holding Kino against the car door and kissing, over and over again, as if possessed. In the early hours of the morning, Dou Youqing's parents came from out of town. Aunt Jiang, who was worried, was surprised and angry when she saw Yoshiko Kino. 

When she left, Dou was clear because of her accident, and now it is because of her. Tuan Tuan fell asleep in Kino's arms. She carefully handed her daughter to me and got up to apologize to Dou Youqing's parents. What else did they say? I don't want to hear it. I just hope Dou is safe. I thought back after the eighth hour, what else did I think about at that time? Do you hope Aunt Jiang can drive Kino away, or imagine that Dou will lose his memory and wake up and only belong to me? But it's all delusional. A day later, Dou Youqing was transferred to the general ward. In the bright afternoon, he woke up muttering Kino's name, his parents were there, and the family wept with joy. I left the ward silently. In the stairwell, I walked blankly through several people who were quarreling. Halfway down the floor, I heard one of the girls yell out of control, "Why can you get him because you love him, let me help you, and think everyone is a virgin?" The tears I had held back for a long time finally fell, and this sentence poked my internal organs and twisted them together. So you see, knowing that there is no hope, Shaw thinks that there are many such people in this world. 

Yoshiko Kino agreed to the marriage proposal in Dou Youqing's ward. After being calm, Aunt Jiang knew what her son wanted. Yoshiko Kino, the daughter-in-law she liked, was walking around in a circle, and now she is also satisfied. My love for Dou Youqing begins with silence and ends with silence. Half a month later, Dou Youqing had not been discharged from the hospital, and he could not come to see me off. At dusk on August 21, the fiery sunset in the distance seemed to gush out of lava. In the afterglow, I boarded a plane to Italy and went to a well-known design school to continue my study. Cursed coincidence, it has been 34 days a year since I first met Dou Youqing. In that rain, he risked his life to protect Tuan Tuan, I knew that I could never get any closer to him in this life. When I went to say goodbye to him, he said wish me luck. He doesn't know that all my good luck has been used to meet him, but his eyes are like the sea, but he can never regard me as blue. He once asked me if he was like An in the story, but I didn't tell him that he didn't. On the top of his finger is the name of Yoshiko Kino, which carries the good time when he and she are infinitely attached. He got her. But An in the story never got the girl. I am also a hyperamnesiac. I can easily name the license plate number of a cab with a casual glance, and I can draw Dou Youqing as lifelike as a picture by memory. During the 34 days of the year with Dou Youqing, every detail was as clear as a frozen movie. There is no hope for the rest of my life.