Don't let our efforts be unwilling to be our parents.

I heard my father say to me more than once, "I want to fight for a few more years."

I asked him why, and he told me, "I'm not reconciled."

but if you think about it a little bit more, it's probably because of me.

after listening to the news too much, they don't come to the big city to be "drifting" and know how high the house price is. He asked me more than once, "where do you want to live in the future?" I always use "not sure" perfunctory, but in fact, I already have the answer at the bottom of my heart: I want to stay in the big city.

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but because the threshold of the big city is too high, I broke the words and swallowed them back into my stomach.

Don't say anything far, just say what I know. On May Day, a friend who was ten years older than me wanted to buy a house and took me to see the house. He said, "you are my consultant, thorns." in fact, he was bored alone and wanted to find someone to be bored with.

We went to a newly opened duplex apartment, a 37-square-meter duplex LOFT with a floor price of 1.91 million, which is a little over 50, 000 per square meter. But this is not the key, the key is that the apartment is a commercial and residential building, which means that it does not have a degree, and the room for appreciation will be limited. At the same time, because it is a commercial and residential building, its average price is 20,000 cheaper than that of residential buildings in the same district.

but all the above are just supplementary information. the real key message is that the down payment of that commercial and residential building is different from that of ordinary residential buildings. It requires a 50% payment. The salesgirl said to my friend, "that is, 980000."

in the end, my friend took a lot of information and said to go back and think about it. Before entering the elevator, the sales especially stressed to his friends: "Sir, to tell you the truth, if you do not order before the end of May Day, it will certainly go up."

my friend said "yes" and then did not speak.

when there were only two of us in the elevator, he said to me, "you know, I came here half a month ago and the down payment is only 900000." It's only been half a month, and it's up 80,000. "

I can't believe it, but it's the truth.

80,000 is probably the first annual salary of most young people, but it is only half a month for hot-selling real estate.

somehow, when I think about this question, I always think of the story that my father told me many times:

he worked hard in Shenzhen when he was young, made a lot of money at the age of 23, and when he returned to the village, he was the only man who had a motorcycle. Then he would tell me that he stood in his thirties, and he made one attempt after another, but from 30 to 40, and then from 40 to 50, he became more and more lonely, and he scolded himself for being too stupid. He had a lot of extra money. But he never thought of buying a house in Shenzhen: "otherwise, I wouldn't be able to help you at all like this."

every time he tells this story, he always grins and ends with a sigh.

every time I listen to him, I think about the same question: "would my father still sigh without me?"

although he is not rich, he also owns an apartment of his own. Although he is not in Shenzhen, is it enough for him who can't even drive a car? He usually doesn't have any hobbies, so he can spend the afternoon buying a CD to broadcast at home, and then he can't go out to have tea and play mahjong with his friends.

if it hadn't been for me, or even if I didn't want to stay in a big city, would he not have to think about "helping me"? he wouldn't have bemoaned his lack of foresight at the age of 50 and called me in a city far from home and said, "I'm not reconciled."

my father's unwillingness is reflected in me, but he is not convinced. Why the painstaking education of the son, in the past decade has not made any big mistakes, study hard, work hard, can go to the big city, will be knocked down by the house price.

I have explained to him that many young people are facing the same predicament as me, and there are even more and more young people who seem to have a more difficult road ahead than me. But he ignored it, just reduced the idea of "not being reconciled" to me, and then continued to work there.

I had planned to ask him to hurry back to recuperate, but then I thought about it. Who am I to stop the idea of "a father wants to help his son"?

and if it were me, I might do the same.

when I was a sophomore working part-time at McDonald's, I always thought that I wish I had earned more than 10,000 a month when I graduated.

then I can get a host that doesn't get stuck and buy myself a pair of headphones with good sound quality. I don't have to work overtime for that triple salary on legal holidays, and I can travel to any city I want to visit. In my opinion at that time, a monthly salary of 10,000 was the door to happiness. As long as you stepped over it, you could become a winner in life.

after I earn 10,000 a month and realize all the things I want to do above, I realize that the world is not what I thought it would be.

I used to say that my family was worried too much, and I could live freely even if I didn't buy a house or a car. But now, you can not buy a house or a car, but do you need to give an account to the family of the person you like? Tell them that their daughter chose the right person? People can understand your way of life, but do you have to consider the other person's values all the time? a lot of things can't be sorted out just by saying "I'll be responsible".

it's cool to think of nothing, but it's also impractical. Because we are not qualified to share our future risks with those who love us, it is selfish.

I still remember that at the beginning of last year, my father was admitted to ICU because of stomach perforation caused by acute appendicitis. He had not yet started treatment, but just had an examination. The first time I paid the fee, I spent three thousand yuan. Excluding the service charge, ICU costs more than 7, 000 a night alone, and it costs nearly 50, 000 in less than half a month. We were able to catch our breath only when we learned that social security could be reimbursed for nearly three-quarters of our expenses.

at that time I have only been working for half a year.

I was born in 1994, and many messy readers must be similar in age to me.

if we are lucky, our parents are still relatively healthy middle-aged people, and most of them may only be over 50 years old, so they are still far away from deafness and poor eyesight. But slowly, their body shape will also begin to change, some because of diabetes weight loss, some because of too much entertainment beer belly rapidly bulging.

I certainly hope that everyone is healthy, but what happened last year made me find that it is necessary to prepare an emergency fund for my parents. Even if you can't, try to let them keep the money to themselves.

saying this is not to scare everyone, but the "not reconciled" that my father unwittingly said on the phone reminds me of a lot of things.

then all of a sudden, I feel like it was time to grow up.

We have worked so hard for so long, not to make our family feel unwilling.

although in the end, I may not be able to beat the market and meet everyone's expectations of me, at least I have tried my best.

this is the end of this article.

but I don't feel reconciled. I don't want to say "I tried". Because Nine Dao said, "not to do your best, but to do it."

so, I not only have to work hard but also must do it.