I don't like you anymore, but I really hope you are.

one.

the day I received the invitation, I sat with him in the corner of the cafe. I ordered sausage double eggs and frozen lemon tea, and he asked for company sandwiches and frozen milk tea. We were talking about our recent work. I said I had trouble leading the team. He said he wanted to quit school and do his training class.

then, at about the same time, our cell phone screens lit up.

I looked down at the message:

"I'm getting married. Will you come on the 16th?"

I picked up my phone and sent it to the soon-to-be bride: "I should go."

she replied to me immediately: "if you don't come, you're dead."

I smiled, because that sentence reminds me of us in high school, she still hasn't changed much, careless, and sometimes she's not as lively as a girl.

after Dead, I replied to her: "all right, I'll be there for sure."

when I put the phone down, I was about to ask the person opposite me if he had received the same Wechat, only to find that he was staring carefully at the cup of frozen milk tea in his hand.

A few seconds later, he realized that I was laughing at him. He raised his fist and said, "get out."

two.

"shall I go?" He asked me questions.

"it seems a little awkward if I go, and a pity if I don't go." He is talking to himself.

I drank the frozen lime tea until there was only ice, and I said, "I must have gone. Have you forgotten what you said to me on the last day of the college entrance examination?"

"what did you say?" He almost stared wide-eyed for decades this year, saying that he had forgotten all about it.

"you said," as I said, I flipped through my moments: "I can finally give up."

"really or not, is there such a strong man with a broken arm?"

I said "really". The reason why I remember so clearly is that after the college entrance examination, the three of us took a picture at the school gate.

after my mother took a picture of the three of us, I showed it to her, and she said, "No, it doesn't make me look good," but he took me by the shoulder and said, "I can finally give up."

I knew what this sentence meant, so I agreed to the girl's request for a remake because it might have been their last picture.

I posted this picture moments at that time and asked, "I don't know if we can still be so close in three years."

so when I showed him my moments, he admitted that he had said that and left an affirmation to himself: "I didn't expect me to be so literary and artistic before."

"Hey, you haven't told me if you're going." He got back to the point.

"you will go," I said.

"Why?" He asked.

"who would miss the wedding of someone they loved in high school?" I answered.

"that's right." He also drank up his frozen milk tea in one breath.

three.

that night, I sent Wechat and asked her, "did you invite him?"

the tacit understanding of a good friend is that you never need to name names.

she replied, "Please, I sent it to him when I sent it to you."

"is he going?" I admit that I asked the question with a mocking mentality.

"he said, and he wants to sell me a big profit." She was wearing a "smirk" meme when she sent it to me.

"be careful it's 520." I sent her a message.

"screw you." When she replied to me like this, she didn't sound like a girl who was about to get married.

I remember that after the boy finally found his girlfriend in his sophomore year, I went out with her for afternoon tea. In the meantime, we talked about the stupid things before and then talked about the recent situation of the boys.

she asked me, "does he have a girlfriend?"

"I said yes, don't you have his moments? He has already made a fortune. "

"Alas." She let out a sigh.

"you don't like people all the time."

"you don't understand," she replied after thinking about it. "there is a person who says he will always like you. Now he tells you that he doesn't like you. It's going to be a little uncomfortable for anyone. "

afraid of my misunderstanding, she added: "I'm not saying I like him, but it's not that I don't like him. Forget it. I don't know. It's just lost, you know?"

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I answered, "I can understand".

this conversation, until this moment, the boy did not know that it had happened.

four.

by the time I got to the door of the wedding reception, it was already seven o'clock in the evening. I called him to pick me up because I asked him to help me get 300 more cash that afternoon.

but I stood at the door and made several voice calls to him, but he didn't answer, so I had to call other students and ask them to call him out quickly.

two minutes later, he ran out.

I laughed at him that "he didn't have to greet me in such a hurry". He joked, "I'm afraid you'll hit me."

later I realized that his anxiety was not because I was waiting for cash to seal Li, but because he was afraid to pass by the bride and groom alone.

after going in, I found the bride and handed her the red envelope: "it's time to grow up."

she was wearing a white veil, several pairs of gold bracelets on her hands, bride makeup on her face, and some sisters behind her to help her pull up the skirt of her wedding dress.

the bride took the red envelope, smiled, and asked me, "when will it be your turn?"

he chimed in behind me: "what are you afraid of?"The next meal will be Brother Kei (that's what they call me). "

I said, "I don't want to get married so early."

"is it too early to be 25?" They both asked at the same time.

"it's not early to be here, but in Guangzhou, 25 is too early, and life is just beginning." With that, the three of us laughed together.

at that time, guests also came in one after another. in order not to cause trouble for the newlyweds, I said to her, "I went in first." she replied, "Thank you for coming to my wedding."

I have heard the same words more than five times this year, but maybe because she is my really good friend, she will inevitably fall into the background music at that moment, and then quickly replay the images of three years of high school in my mind.

looking up again, it was already a picture of her walking into the middle of the auditorium with the bridegroom.

I picked up my phone, hoping to make some notes for that moment.

I touched him with my elbow and said, "the bride is really beautiful."

he answered me, "Yes."

five.

after the party was over, a group of students suggested that we should have a drink and catch up.

I was in the same car as him. According to the plot, we should listen to the song "those years" at this time, but maybe to prevent the atmosphere from getting too sad, so we just rolled down the window and continued to talk about the changes in our old classmates.

just say it, and then talk about the topic of "previous love".

he asked me, "Why do you still remember what it felt like in high school?"

I replied, "have you ever heard of the Checkney effect? in the 1920s, psychologists found that people were more impressed by what was left unfinished. So because you've never finished being with her, you'll remember it better. "

"you mean," he continued, "if it had happened, I wouldn't have remembered how much I liked her and how many funny things I had done."

I said, "Yes, I think so."

"When will it end?" He asked.

"it should be over today," I said.

he stared at the traffic light, smiled bitterly, and said, ", it makes a lot of sense because watching her marry someone else is an unfinished business in my heart."

finally.

what I can confirm is that he doesn't like her anymore, because, in the last two years of conversation, he mentioned more about his previous girlfriend than about her.

and today's article has been creating the illusion that "he may still like her" because he really "likes" her.

it's just this kind of "love". It's not the childish and strong "love" of high school, but the nostalgia and yearning for the "I who like you" in the past.

so her wedding not only foretells that the two newlyweds will agree to accompany each other for a lifetime, but also that some people's "I who like you" will completely become some kind of memory that should be kept in the bottom of my heart.

it's kind of like "you've kept an important gift for a long time, but you're finally going to put it down."

however, this process of letting go will not breed any regret or sadness. Although there will still be some dissatisfaction, what is more, is:

"I wish you and I happy."