Instead of wavering, patiently look for a satisfying relationship.

when Xiaoyu came to my house to pet the cat, the sink in the house happened to be blocked.

I called the landlord.

the landlord said to get someone to fix it right away, and finally teased me: "find a boyfriend to help you."

Xiaoyu heard it nearby.

after I hung up, she immediately gossiped and asked, "how are things with Ah Qi?"

A Qi is a friend of Xiaoyu's boyfriend. We met at dinner and got in touch with each other.

A Qi is quite different from the programmer I imagined, very funny and humorous.

after knowing that I am an editor, I often send me some social hotspots online as an excuse to start a conversation.

but I have always been less attracted to him, so I have been chatting leisurely.

Xiaoyu has always been very concerned about me, a single person. after listening to our current situation of "not seeing each other, chatting occasionally", Xiaoyu said that the progress was too slow.

"There are some things we don't know until we meet." After thinking about it for a while, Xiaoyu came to this conclusion, and she also suggested setting up a bureau to help us advance the progress-- a dinner for Xiaoyu, Xiaoyu's boyfriend, Aqi, and me.

looking at her expectant eyes, I nodded.

I told Ah Qi the next day, and he readily agreed to the invitation and asked if he wanted to pick me up.

thinking about the recent muggy weather and the crowded subway, I said yes. After, we had a few conversations.

A Qi sent a Mini Program: open is a starry sky, where you click there will appear the name of the constellation cluster.

"it's so beautiful!"

this romantic picture quite moved me, plus I already like the starry sky, so I praised him a few words.

"that's me."

he was very happy to hear this and told a lot of production experience, just like a fart child.

on the day of dinner, Xiaoyu reminded me on Wechat: "remember to dress up when you go out tonight."

I thought about not having a meal, but unconsciously put on my new dress and used eye shadow and highlights that I didn't usually touch.

I looked in front of the mirror before I went out, and suddenly I didn't understand what I was doing all this trouble for.

A Qi arrived on time, and he also wore a relatively formal suit.

in the car, he kept looking for topics and asked me if the temperature of the air conditioner was right. I could see that he was a little nervous.

as he approached his destination, he said, "it's a short walk from the parking lot."

"good."

We walked side by side on the road through the crowd.

while waiting for the traffic light, I looked at his side face and was in a trance for a moment.

We look like a couple when we stand together, except that we don't like each other enough.

the atmosphere of dinner is not bad. Although Xiaoyu and her boyfriend often intentionally or unintentionally bring the topic to me and Ah Qi, which makes me a little embarrassed, the smile is over.

during the chat, I turned my head to look at the night view through the glass window and saw myself reflected in it: my face was a little more delicate than usual, my eyes with eye shadow looked more alive, and my pale lips were covered with lipstick.

suddenly I have a little understanding of my state of mind.

in any case, girls always want to show their better side in front of boys with special relationships.

is not only for love but also for vanity satisfaction from the other person's admiring eyes.

on the way back, A Qi said of the last time he sent me Mini Program: "actually, there is a colored egg in it."

"what is it?" I have always been very curious, so I immediately pulled out my phone and wanted to see it.

"you'll see it when you go back." Ah, Qi stopped it, so I didn't continue.

after I got home, I immediately turned out my cell phone. After studying it for a long time, I finally found the colored eggs that Ah Qi said.

it turns out that when I click on the constellation of my constellation, ten seconds after the name of the constellation appears, a little love made up of stars will emerge.

I laughed on the lazy sofa and thought the egg was funny.

but then came helplessness, because I didn't have any more emotions except for fun.

at that moment I was a little frustrated because such an opportunity to fall in love was in front of me, and I seemed to have missed it.

before going to bed, I received a message from Xiaoyu: "how's it going?"

I pretended to be silly: "how about what?"

"Ah Qi?"

"We'll see."

after answering this sentence, Xiaoyu felt my perfunctory and said a little earnestly, "you've been alone for a long time, so it's good to have a person to take care of you." Besides, you don't want to fall in love? "

looking at the questions on the screen, I was silent.

I do want to.

when a person comes home from overtime, when he moves and finds that he can't disassemble a wardrobe, and when he can't find anyone to eat with, I would think, I wish I had a boyfriend.

but, when I want to fall in love, what I want is not to be with the person I like, but to get rid of the feeling of loneliness.

these two things sound very similar, but the starting points are completely different.

the former goes to the future with a specific person, while the latter wants to find a similar person to accompany him because he needs care and love.

of course, there is no difference between right and wrong.

once I didn't distinguish the two things so clearly, so I have been in a vague relationship, not only not getting a complete sense of satisfaction, but also consuming both sides' time and energy.

and what happened tonight finally made me face my heart seriously.

actually, to me, "almost" means "almost".

I opened the window and lay down on the windowsill.

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the night wind sobered one's head in an instant.

it suddenly occurred to me that I went shopping with Xiaoyu that day.

I want to buy a nice dress, but I can't find a suitable one after looking at it for a long time.

but unlike me, Xiaoyu bought several clothes that looked "good" at once, so she was in a good mood.

I actually envy her, because her happiness doesn't seem to be so hard to get, and my seriousness makes it hard for me to be satisfied.

I also thought about not going home empty-handed. I could buy almost one, but I wasn't very happy when I paid for it, so I gave up decisively.

Xiaoyu saw my mood, went shopping with me the next day, and finally bought a dress that I was satisfied with.

it's the same with being in a relationship.

since you can't be satisfied with a "similar" relationship, instead of wavering your time, it's better to look for a satisfying relationship patiently.

just don't give up.